In Growth & Loss

by Idle Minds

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released March 10, 2017

Music written and produced by Idle Minds
Music recorded, mixed and mastered by Michael Yager

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Idle Minds Jackson, New Jersey

Melodic Hardcore from Jackson, NJ

Louie - Vocals
Nick A - Guitar
Nick H - Guitar
Rob - Bass
Dom- Drums

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Track Name: The Color Missing
The Color Missing

I feel the pins and needles prying at the surface.
What did I do to deserve this?
All of the pain, none of the purpose.
My hair keeps on falling out, pouring into these tested hands.
It'll bind around my fingers until it kills the circulation.

The spectrum speaks to all of you but not I.
Am I the color missing in this world of life?
We draw the most beautiful pictures to please our perspectives.
Only for them to be blacked out as anxiety ages.

Show me your shades, all the shades that I can't see.
You're so better than me but you insist on staying.
Emulating your brightest side; a canvas too gorgeous for me to decide.
If I should run & hide.
From my departure.
I should run & hide.
Where do I go now?

I wonder if life works out or if I'm just born to die.
The color missing is inside my beating heart.
My only problem is I never know where to start.
Track Name: Seeing Glass
Seeing Glass

I haven't made much progress.
Frustrated with myself and my habitual actions.
I'll keep breaking my promise I thought this would be gone by now.
I'll keep breaking my promise I thought I'd be collected by now.
Take me back, take me back to when all of this made sense.

I can't find the strength.
I can't find the courage.
who am I?
What have I become?
What is this person in the mirror I see?
Who am I? What am I? What is this? What is life?

Persistent clash of actuality spins the state of my mental duality.
I know I could be better than I was before.
I know I could be better but I'm not anymore.

Bury me lower, lower.
Put me six feet deep.
Please, dear god.
Track Name: Lost Your Love
Lost Your Love

Time & time again I catch myself thinking of you.
Always in my dreams, I guess that means that I still miss you.
You held me so high, a resentment in disguise.
You threw me down, you held me so high.
Yeah I still think of you from time to time.

First time, victim of my first crime.
The purest heart I've come across.
Broken & frozen over due to my lack of loving you.
Tainted & empty just like the way that you left me.

I never thought I'd lose your love.
It took us years to get on the same page.
By the time I got there you closed shop & burned away.
Everything that we ever had.

So quick to turn around.
Now I lost Your Love.

Time & time again I catch myself thinking of you.
Always in my dreams, I guess that means I miss you.
I never thought I'd lose your love.

Where's your love?

(Blair Davis of Homestead)
If I say, "I need you here, I need you to stay" would you be there?
We can pretend you never left, like we're still in December.
The feeling is mutual.
I can't let you go my bride.

Now it's over.
Track Name: Greywake
Greywake

Suddenly, so suddenly.
My eyes are uncovering.
The pattering of rain on my window.
Falling from the darkest clouds tiny droplets screaming aloud.
Outside a house that brings me back to a limbo.

I am the rain that keeps dripping down.
There is no sun here just drowning clouds.
I am the ceiling that keeps falling down.
There is no safe place take a look around.

Silently, but violently.
I fear the thunder in the distance.
Rumbling through the quaking clouds.
Her bolts of lightning won't stop crashing down.
I feel the earth rumble beneath my own feet.

I am the rain that keeps pouring down.
There is no sun here just drowning clouds.
I am the rain that keeps dripping down.
There is no sun here I blacked it out.

Submerged, Ill lay in the rain.
I'm Tired, I'll lay in the rain.
Reserved, I'll lay in the rain.
I'm Tired, I'll lay in the rain.
Undesired, I'll lay in the rain.

I am the rain that keeps pouring down.
There is no sun here just drowning clouds.
I am the the rain that keeps dripping down.
There is no sun here I blacked it out.

This constant turnover wants to see me drown.
Track Name: Own Skin
Own Skin

There's a feeling that I can't describe.
A feeling that keeps me up all night.
As I lay here, I wonder how I've managed to get this far.

Clawing at my skin.
Wishing it would just rip right off.
Staring into the mirror I'm at the brink of it all.
As my Eyes fill up with tears.
While I beat my body black and blue.

Anger threads my head.
I still push forward.
Hurtful words stick to me as much as they would to you.
Someone once told me "Every action has a reaction".

Don't be what they want, just be who you are.
Because who you are will get you far.

I'm not here to dictate how you should live your life.
Move past the pressure, that digging on your chest.
Repetition can only mean two things.
Either failing or doing the right thing.

You have a purpose on this world.
Value yourself, value your time, there is no reset.
Value your own skin with every single giving moment .

There's a certain feeling that I can't describe.
A feeling that keeps me up all night.
As I lay here, I wonder how I've managed to get this far.

Value yourself.
Value your time.

There's a certain feeling that I can't describe.
A feeling that keeps me up all night.
As I lay here, I wonder how I've managed to get this far.

Value yourself.
Track Name: Seven Years Today
Seven Years Today

Left in these broken walls.
The air has filled with sorrow.
How to feel just isn't an option.

It's been seven years.
Where have you been?
I see you met a friend along the way.

He keeps you going, he keeps busy I must say.
You seem tired.
You seem broken.

Grasping around you like daylight to night.
Holding you tightly holding you down.
Under your skin, flowing within.
Making you think it'll all be okay.

As he takes over your will.
Fulfilling that empty space I once called home.
Providing you nothing but waste.
When all you needed was love in replace.

My brothers and mother are sick.
Sick and tired of hearing your excuses hearing your complaining.
Aren't you tired of living like this?
I thought your love for me was evergrowing.

So tell me.
Do you enjoy what you've brought upon yourself?

It's been seven years.
So dad, where should you be?

Oh, go.

It's been seven years.
So dad, where should you be?
Here with me.